shitty

shit. i tot this lump of shits had gone for months but i dint expect today. i ended up taking emergency leave unwillingly. im left with no choice. when can i be totally free from that shit???
i want to be free and live in a new environment where noone knows who i am. pls spare me from this old shit that i have struggled for the past twenty yrs . i told myself several times to be strong, i did. But i can't totally be shit-free unless that lump of shits is gone, gone and gone forever and ever. I may break down anytime if the shit keeps impending... ... i wanna cry.